Just something to get off my chest

If you're a watcher who's just watching me for my art or poetry, this probably isn't for you because, no offence people, it's personal. I'm just getting things off of my chest, though I'm not sure if it's gonna help. Don't say I didn't warn you.

Like the title, I'm just unburdening what's on my mind, and getting stuff off my chest. Not literally, though I'm not sure if it's possible to take your heart out. Which would really help because the broken pieces are destroying my insides. First time heart break. Now I know what it feels like. I wish I didn't grow up the way I did because it's made me soft enough to bitch about this but tough enough to not cry. Why couldn't it be the other way around?

I'm not sure if I'm comfortable enough to go into details here. I don't know. It's left me shaken up and I'm still kinda trying to get my thoughts together. I need sleep but I can't get any. It's pretty late as I'm writing this. Thought might as well do something productive instead of wasting time waiting for something that's not coming any time soon. Not sure if this counts as productive, but at least it's not a waste of time. Well, it kinda is, but I needed to do this some time anyway. No time like he present, right?